Went to Army Open House on Sat Afternoon with my buddy, JH, who has left the organization a few months ago. To us, the exhibits are secondary, there is more to it. Singapore Combat Engineers are the organizer for the event, so it is home-coming in a way. Saw a lot of familiar faces, even went to the extent to find old colleagues who are working behind the scenes. Ya I got to say that I miss the formation after being in there for close to four years. Another reason of visiting on a sat is that I do not have the chance to go with the unit - there is a visit on Friday Afternoon but we were "missed out" as there is ICT on-going just in case they need any last min stores before moving out. And the Army Family Day Tml - Sadly I heard about it from other sources, there is simply no news about it via email or whatsoever. So basically I got to go back and work tml - this is the reality of this "new" place - Ha I know that I have been there for close to a year now, but I am never used to this kinda of hectic pace. The workplan is as such that I do not think that I will be clearing any more leave until end of the year.

Work this week is frustrating. I hate been accused of doing "mistakes" which in the first place is not a mistake. I hate been accused of not knowing my work, I know my stuff but then if senior pp told you to do other wise, I follow instruction to do so. I hate been accused of not doing anything when I am already so heavily loaded with work. Basically the politics in the office is very bad, power struggle among the top brass, I know there are many arrows ready to take me down, I am actually quite neutral but when I am the favorite of one of the top brass, it is usual for another top brass & others to be aiming at me. With those obvious conflicts in the office, you still want to build a united team working under the dept, when the management level cannot solve the differences among themselves?

Being sick and tired of the politics in the office is another reason for me to consider my next move. I am waiting for the new study scheme to be announced. I have been considering for a long while, I still dunno what I want to do outside. I am not very interested to go back to Engineering line which I study outside. But I need a break. I need to get out of this office. I am okay to be still working within the organization, but this office is draining my interest away with all the conflicts on-going. I may hit the books again coz the conditions - fully sponsored, fully salaried while studying full time sounds very tempting, just that I still do not know what is the price to be paid (in terms of years of service). And I dunno if the organization will give it to me especially I started my career with them so badly. It is gonna to be a big gamble and so I am waiting for more of the new study scheme to be announced.

It is something that I always wanted to do. And so I am tempted.