I have marked 2 dates in my email calendar. I decided not to procrastinate on this matter but yet I have given myself ample time to consider. When the first date arrived, if i am still unhappy, I will throw paper. And the second date that I marked is my tenative ORD date.

Hahaha. But if I have already given so much consideration that I have marked the dates, I guess that I have already made up my mind. It is not going to happen very fast, I still want to be done with NDP and my bond before I go.

Yeah 1 year plus is still a long way to go, but man it is good to plan ahead and think of my plans outside.

The wise father again asked me to re-consider my decision. But after I "let go" some steam that I have been keeping for a while, he relented after sensing my frustration. And asked me to plan ahead and as such, I came out of the dates.

Yeah I have no plans outside but going there every morning and just hoping the day will pass by fast. Something is just ain't right. I have lost that passion for it. It has now become just a job, no longer have the passion, pride, camaraderie associated to the job. Every month just looking forward to the 10th. Well that is just so wrong.

I want to do something that is more meaningful.

I heard from my father that my sister went to the newspapers again to complain about my bro in law. I didn't see the report. But maybe I should start to archive those reports and see how often she goes to the newspaper. This is not the first time, i think it is like the 3rd time she got herself featured in the papers over these few years, but maybe this is what attention seekers like to do. Hoping some rich people will sympathize with her and give her some $? Or hopefully getting the bro in law get charged coz I heard that the recent report mentioned underage sex?

I dunno who is right or wrong. I dunno who to trust when the 2 person are involved. Because both are known for telling lies.

That's why I stayed away from all these mess. And I would be happy to carry on avoiding contact.