Finally a run in 2 weeks

I finally got my engine restarted with an easy 6km jog along the Ulu Pandan Park Connector after a long break. The construction is still on, so got to cross over to the other side to the temporary pavement. I am regaining that bit of confidence after that very dismal 10km run at MR two weekends ago. While I know that I am no longer that guy a decade ago who enjoy overtaking people like fun, and especially after those injuries in recent years. But that dismal run that day is still so disappointing. Through I know that I will never reach that level again, especially the level of intensity and frequency that I trained a decade is so freaking high.

I trained like six days a week, with my three CCAs (all sports). But behind that fact, there was a secret behind it. I may be one of the fitest, in good shape back in those days, but I was doing that to run away from reality. I was working hard to tire myself out so that I am so freaking tired that I will sleep at night after visiting my late mother at the hospital, and not to think too much. Even at 15, I already knew what is coming when my late mother went down with her 2nd stroke. And dealing with a sister who never visit my late mother till the social worker kept looking for her. That was very depressing those days. That's why I treasure friends more than anything else, through family is forever.

Gone were those days. I still hope that I can do something about my increasing weight/waist line/blood pressure. Maybe there is no such reason now. I do hope that I can work on my time management so that I can train during weekdays as well.