Newton Active Run 2009

This race does not feature in my racing calendar this year at first, but ended up signing it up with my friend when collecting the race pack for Zoo Run. Didn't have a good sleep the night before and seems to be falling sick again. Was in camp till like 9pm on a sat night preparing for the audit, before finally returning home to do one week worth of laundry, and of coz the soccer actions on a sat night. I only slept like 2am in the morning, and haha didn't really want to wake up for the run but I finally did.

I started the run together with my secondary classmate, Idris. I enjoyed overtaking people so much that like any other races, I went too fast at the start for the 1st 2km, especially the 2nd km when it's like 6 mins per km pace. It is too late by the time I realized it, it has taken the toll on me as I am breathing fast, and I decided to go slower and so Idris "ditched" me and go ahead at the 1st water point. I went into the "run walk" mode soon after, but I still managed to an average of 7mins per km pace for the rest of the course. I finished the 10km race in close to 71mins, considering my last 10km run in MR more than a month ago is 80 mins and the previous one is 90 mins, it is another vast improvement and a PB in a 10km race after my injury woes. Maybe I can go faster than this if I have enough sleep, less stress at work, and not having a slight flu, but I ain't complaining. I am happy with the run today.

16 months left. I seems to be counting down for a while now. Well. I tried to adapt but... True, I finally got my promotion and pay raise after changing my vocation. But I am seriously very stressed and very unhappy ever since then. Till the extent that I have more or less made up my mind. It is just a matter of when now. I know it is a big decison, given the market out there, and I need to pay some LD. But when your heart is no longer there, and you are depressed going to work everyday and very unhappy given all the office politics over there, and you don't know what and why the f*** you are working so hard for, it's time...

I didn't even bother to go back today, despite being asked to. I dun feel good about the audit at all. I know my section will fail badly. But I dun really give a damn anymore.

All i want is my freedom and happiness, I dun really bother about the cost and consequences le.