Chua's Believe or not?

I never really believe the prescece of spirits until my mother's teaching today. I am just back from the 7th day prayers, and something happened.

As part of the preparation for the prayers, a big container of rice grains was specially prepared with the rice grains spread evenly on top. @12mn sharp, the whole family, consisting of me, my sis, my bro in law, my 3 nieces and the maid all went downstairs and burnt the offerings. I started asking my mother to come and take the offerings, blessing everyone with health, luck. @ that moment, everyone thought that they are just going through the motion, but somehow i felt her presence, and when we finished burning, i looked into the flames, and asked my mother to go up and eat the food prepared.

We took the lift up. Immediately as we walked into the flat, a butterfly flow in. And caused quite a stir. But i was't sure yet if it is her. I thought a look @ the offering and instantly notice that the milo was being drunk one or two slip. Also took a look downstairs and the fire has stopped.

Then my sister went and open the lid for the rice container. The hand print is there. That is it, my sister starts to weep. I took a look @ the print. The size is correct, and the shape also shows the grip - my mother grip the small towels on her hands in her last sleep.

Just as everyone starts to feel a bit eerie, the next unbelieveable thing happened. My bro in law and I saw the fire went off. But then somehow it restarts by itself again, by then it is already about 30 mins later since we came back. It wasn't really burning anything. It's just a mini-fireball from the view of 11 storey, it is just moving around in the container. It took me a while to realise that she's "writing", but with regrets, i dun get her writings. But my biggest niece (the one she dotes most) managed to decode some characters. But overall, we dun get any meaning out of it.

And the candles. There are 2 pairs of candles offered, one @ the offering table, and 1 @ the door. Strangely, the 2 left-side candles have their wax flow down. The 2 right-side candle don't.

Last but not least, though she's my mother, i was still a bit scared. So i slept at my side, with my back facing the door. I got turned over 5 or 6 times. The most memorable is the first time, my right hand which is covering my face, just got numb suddenly, and shifted away to show my face. Then my left hand also went numb also shifted away to reveal my whole face. It's just like my mother want to take a good clear last look. Everytime, i would end up lying flat hands by my side or in front, with my face facing up or towards the door.

How i know? I didn't really sleep lah. I sleep, i wake up, i sleep, i wake up. Of coz without opening my eyes lah. Feeling a bit eerie is one, sleeping @ my sis place is another. But @ 0559hrs, i felt my left eye drop a tear, and next thing i know, my alarm sounded liao. 6am. And i decided to head back home.

Will sleep more later, but now i thinking how to solve my hair problem. Based on chinese traditions, a son cannot cut his hair for 100 days after the passing of a parent. And i am in a job that does not permits long hair. Tough call.