Friday, February 23

Explanation

Maybe there are people out there who will question my stand with regards to my mother, it's never a easy decison. But frankly speaking, my mother is fighting a losing battle. Strokes have "eaten" her up so badly that there is no way back. Unlike other diseases that have cures. These main blood veins, nerves burst means burst forever. Functions lost are very often irreverseable.
I know not all can understand unless you saw her or one before you can understand how bad is her already. Maybe i shall write in great details again: Weak legs - cant walk, stand. Weak limbs, no strength. Unable to take care of herself - need assistance to bath/change/move. Lost control of throat - cant swallow, cant talk, tube feed. Lost control of bowel - rely on diapers. Weak back -cant sit upright. Weak neck - cant keep her neck up. Bedridden.

It's already that bad before the development of this week. So what u expect me to do? It's already hard to keep my spirit up at times seeing her like that.

So I just do what i believe is right, because it's right to me.

1 comment:

Tekko said...

I know how it feels. My grandmother-in-law was like that for close to 10 years and we could see her suffer. Can't talk, can't move, can't do anything just sit in the wheelchair the whole day and make noise (I presumed cries of frustration)! Later, my mother-in- law came down with the big C and towards the later stage also couldn't move. It is very depressing but you need to be strong for your mother's sake. Your sister also have it tough and need your support.