I have been slacking at home these couple of days before flying off, ignoring phone calls from work and ya you know who. Well got to be honest, these past few weeks at work has not been pleasant, the feeling of squeezing me dry before the trip is always there. But the excitement of taking the flight and going to Europe for the 1st time also took over, so my mind wasn't all at work anymore. And the tension is also high with my direct superior, ever since the incident i was superb unhappy over having to divide my attention on two offices.
The salary is quite okay as compared to the outside world but frankly speaking, i can see the end coming. It is just a matter of when. My patience is wearing thin. And my interest is dying. Thus this long overseas working trip is really timely, I got to take a break from all these office politics, unhealthy and stressful working environment. And hopefully it will improve matters. But i strongly doubt so. It is not really the work but with the boss. Salary matters but being happy is the most important, i reckon. The past one year plus has been very stressful. And I have not been happy at all. I dun really see much purpose in my work anymore, and this is alarming.
As I have said, hopefully this trip help find my motivation back.
Well back to the incident in my last blog entry. Now there is this claim that this is a test to see if i am actually after her body before becoming friends. Oh well I must have failed the test terribly on that count. What's wrong with the kids nowadays? Sexually explict sms is one thing, using the body as a test?
A claimed rape victim on that sat morning, after which I offer my sympathy to before the issue blow up. But now claim to have intercourse for 5 times already so need this test?
It got me really confused. So what is right, what is wrong? What is the truth? What is the false?
Removing the blog entry is out of the question. This is my blog, i express my view freely. I answer to no one and do not owe anyone explanation.
Yeah I admit that I have my shortcomings - falling to temptation. Thankfully I put a stop to it fast. But not fast enough. It is really bad of me to have such bad thoughts. It is a good lesson for me as well. I shouldn't trust anyone so easily as well.
If I can change my phone number and ignore my sister. My real sister. for close to 3 years. Dun try me, stop msging me. I believe in removing the source of negativity.
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