Was surfing through Facebook and saw the name of my eldest niece, who is from the previous marriage of my former brother in law, as her profile is private, decided to Google her name, and discovered through other sources that I have been "promoted" to a grand uncle for like almost a year without realizing it myself. She was bornt the exact same date with me, but 5 years my junior. So wah it is shocking, but after doing some maths, she isn't that in front of my sister, maybe like only 1 year plus.

But I never regret the decision to leave everything behind in terms of family. Maybe I will be very lonely when I grow old. But after what I have went through, especially all those bad clashes with my sister over money issues during those days I save a lot to support my late mother, that I am not going to forget anytime soon.

Two years has passed without much contact. Many people might not understand but I am much happy now. Even my extended family supports my decision, maybe not all, but they understand why I stayed away. There is no more disturbing sms that distract you from work or anything. There is no need to worry about loans that will never come back. That's why I am still staying away.

Through sometimes I would think if it is worthwhile to miss the growing up of all my 5 nieces, be it my sister one or my bro in law, I still considered all of them mine, just because that I do not want to get involved with my sister in any ways.

But then, I am still wounded from those horrible few years that she sucks me dry financially through threats, especially when the care of my late mother is concerned. I still remembered a day that she totally never turn up to tube feed my late mother because I refused to settle her phone bills that is more than 1000 dollars, her decision to admit her late mother into a nursing home so that she can go work before the employment of a maid, and subequently denied any responsibility when the hefty bill of a few thousands comes. That was also the time I was reduced to survive 2 weeks with like 80 dollars left in all my accounts.

Damn, there are still many many incidents like this, if I can still remember all this so clearly so how many years would I take to forgive and forget. Maybe a lifetime.