Saw my boss today. And have a 30-40 mins talk with him.

I wanted to see him actually to discuss the immediate plan for me, as in which office that i will be in. But he misunderstood my question and discuss my long term plan, which is also good. It's time to talk about it.

And he told me upfront that i am not going to receive my performance bonus for the year in March. He asks me not to be upset, but seriously i am not; he says that if i dun feel anything, must send to IMH. But hahaha i dun really feel anything, because i know deep inside that i dun deserve it at all. What i have done this workyear? Hmmm nothing much except having a total of over 130 days of MC (when i first tornt the ligament + the operation).

But i am glad that he said that he would see my recovery first before planning the next step for me. But his suggestion/recommendation to me is actually the same as my ex-boss, and also the one that i am planning to do. Hmm well after such a start, there is no way that i am going over to plan 2. I knew it all along, and my boss has confirmed it.
I told my boss quite frankly that I cannot leave the service at the moment. Liquidated damages is one issue, the cost of supporting my mother is another, and my NSF liability also another.

So we has reached an understanding. He is looking to revocate me if possible after my recovery, as i might not recover enough to remain in my vocation. And me will most likely leave the service after my bonded period, as advised by him. And in the meantime, i will just continue to do my very best and contribute as much as possible to my organisation to the best of my abilities.

Well it's good to has this very frank talk. It helps to clarify things. Than me worrying, fearful over my situation. Might as well find out my boss's idea.