I am almost dead.
14 hours in KKH. Nvm.
Now not only 1 niece in. The 6 year old has joined in due to excessive vomitting and high fever. So timely orh.
But luckily, bed 3 happened to discharge. Just nice. Now we occupied bed 2 and 3.
Jialat man.
Then finally came home after making them to sleep to see my oscar fish having a serious case of ick/ich attack again. Arrrrrhhhh. Immediately change water. But well i dunno if it can make it this time. Especially i will be out for the whole day tml. I will change water before i go, and just hope for the very best.
Ok i am dead tired. Shall go and rest, another long day ahead. Not 1 but 2 to look after. Arrrhhhhhh

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I was left out of a "mission" that i asked to be in.
Yes i am busy, yes i am tired, yes i am pai kar.
But i really wanted to be involved. I am very disappointed.
But well it's over. 1 more year to go. Well i believe there will be.

Why am i so upset? Because i hate breaking promise. Promised her after celebrating mine, then i will celebrate for her back.
And i am angry of myself for forgetting the date.
And i should have double confirmed with them. maybe telling them my intent 1 week in advance is too early for them. Maybe they didn't know i am actually rather serious about it.
Just freaking freaking freaking angry with myself.

It was something that i really really really wanted to do, to return the flavour of celebrating my birthday for me. But darn it, i screwed it up again. What's wrong with me?