To give or not to give.

Today is a day that i dun really want to remember. Today marks 9 years since my mother went down with her first stroke. Oh well. Time really flies. It's also more than 5 years since my mother become bedridden after the 4th stroke. Hmm well.

I kept her walking stick all along at one corner. Hoping one day she will get to use it again. But today I suddenly think why am i keeping it. Is there a chance she will use it again?

And there is this shower chair that i happily keep too. Hahaha. My mother is so jialat that she cannot even sit by herself. And she lose control of the neck too. So if you put her on wheelchair, well u need something to support the neck too, if not, her neck will bend 90 degree backward, and look at you while you push. Can visualise? So why am i keeping this shower chair without backsupport? This shower chair was used when she was better, kept it also hoping one day she will use again. I think this shower chair is belonged to some social services, will arrange to return to them.

But i dunno lah. If i decided to give away, it also kinda symbolise that i has lost hope.

Ya isn't my house like some rubbish collection point orh? hahahaha.